Moving...

I still can’t believe it has been two years since I have moved out of my parents’ house. It really does seem like last week that I moved out. Time sure does fly. I’ve had a lot of good times, bad times, and sad times in that apartment. I would have friends over and we would have Shake and Bake night. Gotta luv the Shake and Bake! There were plenty of nights that my little sisters would come and spend the night. They just loved coming to be with their Sissie. I would have Grey’s nights, and I also had plenty of nights where my bestie would come over and we would just hang out. Sometimes we would talk all night, and sometimes we would just sit and watch TV and say nothing. Either way, it was great just to be with her.

It was in my apartment that I received the phone call from her that she had cancer. It was also in my apartment that I received the news that she was cancer free. It was there that she sat on my couch and broke the news to me that she would be moving to Florida. It was there that we said our final goodbyes before she left for Florida. There are too many memories in that apartment. It will definitely be hard to see it go. To say goodbye to a place that has so many memories in that very short time.

In 11 days I will officially be out of my apartment. That is the day when my lease is up. I am moving back home with my parents. Student loans are coming due, and I just can't afford to live by myself anymore. It sucks being 31 and moving back home, but I have to do what I have to do. It is just that I'm going from an apartment of 1 to a house of 6 with 2 dogs. It will definitely be a change going back to that.

I have been staying at my parents’ house some, but I knew if I just didn't want to deal with it I could go home. But now where will I go? I won't be able to get away from the chaos. Going to my room just won’t be the same. I am staying in my little sister’s room until my room is finished. Hopefully that won't be too much longer. My parents are actually going to be finishing the basement so I can move in down there. I will have my own little apartment down there. I will have a living room, bedroom, and bathroom. It will be nice. But it needs to be finished. Hopefully it won’t be long. My goal is by August that it will be done. I would LOVE for it to be done before then, but we will see.

What a year...

This past year has been a year of change for me. January 3, 2010 I truly started on my new journey towards a healthier me. That is definitely a change. I did fabulous at first. The first month alone I lost 16 lbs. The next few months after that, I lost each month. It wasn't near what I did the first month, but that was OK, at least I was losing.

Then I started not having the same motivation I had before. I keep trying to think of why, the only thing I can come up with is just one excuse after the other. I also would allow myself to eat this bad thing "just this once." Well, I still kept losing, so "just this once" kept happening more and more often. By June, I had lost 50 lbs. By September, I had gained 7 lbs. Then from September to November, I had maintained. Then in less than a month, I gained 15 lbs. I couldn't believe it. I knew I hadn't been doing good at all, but seriously...15 lbs??? In less than a month??? DUDE!!! So now I'm trying to get back on track. Here's to a healthier me in 2011!!

There have been other changes this year as well...

After going to college on an off for 12 years, I decided I had enough. I just couldn't do it anymore. So during Spring Break, I decided not to go back. I was done with school. My heart wasn't in it anymore, and there is no need to spend that kind of money, if my heart wasn't in it. Not being in school, means that student loans are coming due, so I got a second job. I have been working two jobs since May. It is very exhausting, but my bills say I have to do it.

Because student loans are coming due, I have to move back home. I am moving back in with my parents in March 2011. I am OK with moving back home, but have gotten used to not living with anyone, not having to answer to anyone. It is great. Oh well, gotta do what you gotta do...'tis life.

I've also had changes in friendships...

My bestest friend in the whole wide world moved to beautiful Clearwater, FL in July. We only met a few years ago when I started my current job, but it was like we'd known each other forever. She definitely knows me better than anyone. I have never been so comfortable around someone in my entire life. She isn't someone I feel like I have to impress. We are DEFINATELY sister from a different mother! In the short few years that we have known each other, we have been through so much, more than some who have been friends for 20 years. I luv that girl. I've been to see her twice since she has moved, always great to see her, always sad to leave. I miss her so much. If I didn't hate summer so much, and my family wasn't here, I could see myself living down there.

I have another person that I was friends with that things happened to change our friendship. In July, she got married and I was the Maid of Honor in her wedding. Then in September, we got in a fight, and we are no longer friends. There was a lot more to it than just one fight, but no need to air people's dirty laundry. I am not sad that we aren't friends, but that doesn't mean that we didn't have good times together. We were friends for 5 years. You can't be friends for that long and not have good times. I just think, for me anyways, that our time as friends is over. We became friends during a time when we both really needed someone. I know saying that I don't need her anymore sounds harsh, but I don't know how else to put it. We all need friends, don't get me wrong. BUT, that doesn't mean that you are always going to stay friends forever. God puts people in your life for the time that you need them. That may be 5 minutes, 5 years, or 50 years.

I'm not sure what 2011 is going to bring, but hopefully it will bring good health, happiness, and many wonderful surprises!