The Devil made me do it...

So my boss thinks it is a good idea to have a quote of the day. So when I sign on to my software at work each day, there is a new quote for me to read. Today's quote really hit home for me.

Stress is what happens when your gut says, "No"...
...but your mouth says, "Of course. I'd be glad to."

How true is that for emotional eaters like myself? It is VERY true! When I am stressed, I just want to eat. MY waist line is saying you don't want it, but my mouth is totally saying yes! It is like the little devil and the little angel sitting on your shoulder. The angel says, "Eating won't solve anything, Don't do it!" And the devil says, "But it will make you feel SOOO much better. Just do it! It won't hurt you." If I am going to be honest, I have given into the devil more times than I can count. I know that I have not conquered the devil, but at times it does get easier.

Learning to find other ways to deal with my stress is harder than I thought it would be. Eating has always been the one thing I could control. I could control what went in my mouth. When I had no control over anything else, that was the only thing I could. So that is what I turned to. For a long time it was my "best friend." Well...my "best friend" has gotten me where I am today, and it is time to break ties. :)

My pitty party...

I have been really stressed here recently. I have decided to quit school. I just can't do it anymore. I have been going to school for a while now. I went from K-12 (12 twice). Then I did go to college for a year and a half, dropped out for a couple of years. Then I went back for a few more years, then graduated with an Associates in Applied Science. I did take another year off after that. Then I went back to get my Bachelors, in a different major. I have been going back for a couple of years now, and I am just done. I am sooooooo sick of school. I like to learn, I just HATE studying, tests and homework. I am sick of having to be there at specific times, and teachers. I am just done with it all.

I am also stressing over other things. I am stressing over my finances. Stressing over trying to find a second job. Stressing over losing weight. Stressing over so much more. Woe is me. lets just all have a pitty party!